Reality

Studying is boring....... wish i could just get this over with! study study study........ reading all those info on dead people and ancient history. i'll tell you what, IT'S A TOTAL BORE FEST!

Yes yes yes, you have to study, it's for the good of your future. Yeah i know that. Yeah i'm studying. There's no guarantee that your future will be bright after all that reading. It isn't like the guy up there wrote a letter to you saying you'll be getting a good job and an even better life. You'll have to achieve those with your own power. Uhuh, sure.

Work hard, work hard, all your work will pay off sooner or later. and when is that? who knows!

All i know is, no point dreaming, what you want, get it, what you cant get, keep trying until you are sure there's no way to obtain it. Then, LIVE WITH IT......... Aiming for 5As minimum, Exams are on the 18th of May. I'll see how much studying i can do until then.

Wishing all of you the best of luck, study hard, no goofing off, do your best, there's only one chance in life. Take it or leave it.

I'll be hitting the books, hard.

Thou need not know the truth, as it might not be what it seems.

Mat rempit-ed

This morning, when i was cycling happily to school. I was passing through the back of the hospital, and just as i turn to the road that leads to E Wei's condo, i heard a scream. Looking back, there were 5 people, two with helmets (the mat rempits as how people call them), an indian female, a chinese female and male. Here's how it went, i saw that one of the mat rempits(of unknown race) trying to snatch the handbag of the indian female, while she was unwilling to let go, she kept pulling it back and forth, then i don't know what the other two chinese was doing since it all happened so fast. Suddenly, the mat rempit let go. I didn't know if he took anything in the bag or not. He jumped on the motorcycle and the person on the bike drove off. It all happened under 5 seconds, it was quite a startle.

There was 2 or 3 motorbikes following behind me, and guess what? they were all WATCHING.........

Personally, i couldn't really do anything to start with. I've calculated, if i were to turn my bicycle and go after them, it would be slightly too late, and i might get myself in trouble instead of saving anyone. I'll need saving myself if i were to enter that ferocious fight... Though i wonder what the other 2 or 3 motorcyclists were thinking, they could've helped if they wanted to..... I'm wimpy, i do admit that. :P

Maybe i should've chucked my bicycle at them. haha!

E Wei had the crazy idea that if the mat rempit were to just jump on the bike, and the driver drove off before he sat, he'll split his banana(banana split, the ultimate breakdance move that can only be performed once by men, and they'll need to visit the surgery ward for the next few weeks.) and it would be really funny. HAHAHA! Or that he sat on the bike but the driver drove off so fast that the guy would fall off the bike DUE to inertia, then the driver would reverse and pick up the guy, but he reversed a bit too much, and...... well..... just imagine the positions........ XD

ok, that's all for today's update. Nights! Curse my 10pm curfew......

my bicycle has been tuned and slightly modified!

Long title indeed.I couldn't think of a better one.

As the title has mentioned, my bicycle has been tuned and modified.

The brakes were quite loose and the bicycle could still move even after i apply the brakes.I figured it was dangerous to leave it like this, so i proposed to go to a shop and fix it.

Went there today after tuition, was a nice and peaceful ride, with the shining sun right above me in the midst of the afternoons and the cool(not) breeze blowing in my direction causing air resistance which means i have to pedal harder, plus, it was an uphill road. HAHAHA!

The guy tightened my brakes, shifted it to a lower angle so that it is easier to control, or so he says. Then i've set the pedal gear to the middle, larger one, so that there will be more bang for my buck. As in the bicycle will move with a faster top speed at a sacrifice of acceleration. though i do prefer acceleration over top speed, but this was an exception since i've been feeling slow lately. This will also help me train my leg muscles. Two birds with one stone, or maybe the other way around if you would prefer.

Point is, my bike is now faster with better brakes! YAY ME!

I beg my leave.

quick update

I'm currently using my time 'wisely' to study and YET online at the same time. Though i've controlled myself not to touch the com after i'm done. i leave the msn on so that i could contact people just in case.

yes yes, you have not mistaken, i have obtained the will to study. ask me why? i'll tell you. but not now. XD

the midterms are just around the corner, as in, you turn, then it's right there waiting.... staring with its all powerful glare.....forcing you to grab your books and........ FOOL AROUND! hahahah!

anyways, went to (insert person's name here)'s place to study. didn't literally study, but revised just a tiny wee bit of history.

and now i'm here.

and now i'll be dashing to the toilet to bake cakes, do my business and maybe earn some money while i'm at it.

yeah, i'm lame but not funny..... lost the will. KBYEPOOPOOTIME!

A peaceful day.

Finally, one of those rare occasions where i am not emo for ONE WHOLE DAY and nothing bad has occurred anywhere near me. Just a normal, peaceful day. How delightful. It's been quite a while since i had such a day. It WAS a peaceful day, so expect this post to be more boring than usual.

I'll start off with a congratulatory applause to Ms.Ivy Tan Jia Bao and Ms.Nicole Leaw Hui Qing on winning third prize in last week's cooking competition with a total of NO CASUALTIES! *grand applause* lol joking. I am serious on the cooking competition, they really won third prize. it was expected since they cooked so well~

Oh, and we did the choral speaking today. Refer to Nicole's blog to get a more detailed explanation.

Moral class was fun. Had a good talk with the teacher and Tat Chee. hahaha,  i remember a part of the conversation, it went like this,

Tat Chee: is it 'bla bla bla'?

Teacher: yeah it's 'bla bla bla', you've got it right. Don't tell anyone else.

Han Zhang: erm, i'm right here. i can listen very clearly.

Me, teacher and Tat Chee: hahahahahah!

*bla=moral value.

Since it was moral class, and moral was one of the worst subjects that i cannot master, so i forgot what that moral value he said, or any other moral value to start with! XD

Then the twins went missing, though i am going to respect their privacy and NOT ask what happened. Even though i am very curious....

Everything went on normally after that.

*fast forward*

OK TIME TO GO HOME. (walking to my bicycle)

Fix up everything and getting ready to leave when, out of the blue, i almost snapped my lock into the holder full of bird excretion! i was amazed on how a bird can accurately excrete its faeces into a slip hole 0.4cm wide.... anyways, took out my merit card that was in PERFECT(sarcasm) condition, and placed tissue at the tip of the card, and swiped it through the slip. Removed what's left of the tissue, and went on my way, while having that grotesque feeling running through my mind...

Whelp, that's about it on my exquisite day of peace and normality.

G'bye my beloved and dearest of readers~

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The past that allures me.

I am feeling very nostalgic these days... i miss my past, my childhood. when my dad was still with me. my old friends. when there was nothing in the world that could make me worry. everything was peaceful, so calm and perfect. As i grew and changed, so has my life. And now, this, what it has become.

I don't know. so many things had changed. sometimes i wonder why my dad......... why my mom.....

Such things that i had to go through. such harsh and painful events. yes i might be living, i might not be living to the fullest. i am going to prove it all wrong! i will change it! there might still be times where i will shudder, and hide from the truth. i wish for support, from my friends and my only family. Though i rarely get encouragement, i still endure, hoping one day, i will get what i want. What i have gotten, i deserved. i have no regrets.

A simple wish, takes a lifetime to be fulfilled, and only the ones near me are able to fulfill it.

The love i had obtained in money and objects, but not in affection and heart felt warmth. i wish for those, but are unable to reach for even a tiny bit of it.

The care i had given, taken for granted. what has driven me to continue to live this long? my fear of death? the things i would miss and forget if i were to leave this world? for the sake of my mom? to prove myself wrong? what is it? i want to know. i will find out. maybe.... maybe.... to achieve my dreams and wishes..... to find it..... yes.... that might be it....... i might have found it..... will i be able to....... cherish it...... will i? that.... i leave to fate, and hope it will not forsake its duty.....

With this. i change my perception of life. i always say i would change..... hopefully i will be able to. with one last sentence. 'Friends, i seek your help and guidance.'

Please, assist me through this wretched life i now possess, and help me reach for the new, or old life, that i once had. it is not an easy job, and i cannot do it alone. And, when this new life had been given to me, i shall treasure it with all my heart. i will not let it go. never.

The tears i have shed, the new things i have gained, will not go to waste. Friends, you have my deepest and sincerest gratitude, i shall always be there, in light or in darkness, to repay the kindness, the debt i owe, for you, i will do anything.

totally random shtuff..

me gots big bar of Toblerone chocolate! it r 2 b triangle.

mom's friend gave chocolate! big stick chocolate, must, bash, with, chocolate stick!!!

*laughs maniacally*

ME SMASH BOOK!

rraaaaawwwwwwwrrrrrrrrrrr! smash book with chocolate! MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!

yes i have gone completely hysterical with that Toblerone bar. 

MY CHOCOLATE BAR!@ YOU NO TOUCH! GO AWAYYY~

i still can't get the mood to study, guess it's back to the last minute plan again...

I STUDYS WITH CHOCOLATE BAR! THAT GOOD PLAN YAR!

DIE DIE DIE! ME WIN!

HAHAHHAHAHAHAH *coughs*

ok, that's enough crazy shtuff for a day.

G'BYE!

tagged by a LOT of people. was NUTS!

1. Last beverage→ H2O+virus
2. Last phone call → i don't get phone calls anymore.....
3. Last text message→ Jia Bao
4. Last song you listened to→ (blank)
5. Last time you cried → last friday.
6. Dated someone twice → never dated before.
7. Been cheated on? not that i would know of.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? My dad/sis?
9. Lost someone special? erm.... ain't sure about this one.
10. Been depressed? quite a lot. nowadays, not so much.
11. Been drunk? No


LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Blue
13. Green
14. Yellow(and any other shiny colours)

HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends → rarely.
16. Fallen out of love → let's just say you're closer than you think.
17. Laughed until you cried → Yup
18. Met someone who changed you→ E Wei
19. Found out who your true friends were→ sure did. i think.
20. Found out someone was talking about you→ no one talks about me in the first place.(of course, i wouldn't know)
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ does flying kiss count? because i've done that a lot to Adrian. XD
23. How many kids do you want to have→ that depends on my wife.( if i would ever get one.)
24. Do you have any pets-> not now. i've got a lame joke on this question but i think it's better not to post it here.
25. Do you want to change your name→ yes! desperately!
26. What did you do for your last birthday→ do you HAVE to remind me? meh, stayed at home. nothing much.
27. What time did you wake up today? 6.15A.M.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night→ Sleeping. (was ill, still am actually)
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for → this is a MAN's secret. :P
30. Last time you saw your father→ about 2 years ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → there are many things you do not wish to know. this is one of them.
32. What are you listening to right now → the air that is flowing in and out of my ears? my stand fan? light?
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → not that i recall.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? → nothing really.
36. What's your real name → Retard number one aka Woo Han Zhang
37. Relationship Status →Single
38. Zodiac sign → Aquarius
39. Male or female→ i am not so sure..... XD BOY LA!
40. Elementary→ SJK(C) Yuk Chai
41. Middle School → SMK Kelana Jaya
42. High school → (not applicable)
43. Hair color → Black
44. Long or short → short
47. What do you like about yourself?erm. my 'wonderful' life.
48. Piercings → none
49. Tattoos → fake children tattoos. when i was young.
50. Righty or lefty → Lefty(i'm special! XD)

FIRSTS :
51. First surgery → none
52. First piercing → NONE! ENOUGH ALREADY WITH THE PIERCINGS AND THE TATTOOS!
53. First tattoo → ARGH!
54. First best friend → Siew Kian Yip. i only knew his chinese name but i think this is how you spell it.
55. First sport you joined → feet ball? HAHAHA!
56. First pet → rabbit
57. First vacation→ lemme get back to you on this.
58. First concert → be more specific...
59. First crush →"the door to my heart is barricaded " oh dear, my poetic soul is rising again.
60. First alcohol drink → shandy?
61. Eating → nothing.
62. Drinking → isn't this the same with the first question?
64. Listening to → and i've answered this too.
65. Waiting for → this is similar with the, 'what you CANNOT wait for' question.

YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids? DEPENDS ON MY WIFE  DAMMIT@
67. Want to get married? see if i can find my other half.
68. Careers in mind? physicist
69. Lips or eyes → leave it to fate.
70. Hugs or kisses → dunno.
71. Shorter or taller → fate
72. Older or Younger → fate
73. Romantic or spontaneous → fate
74. Nice stomach or nice arms → fate
75. Tattoos or piercings→ fate
76. Sensitive or loud → preferably sensitive on this one.
77. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship.
78. Trouble maker or hesitant→ erm, both are bad, how am i supposed to choose?
79. Kissed a stranger → Sick bastards.
80. Drank hard liquor → no. all i know is that it's bitter. yucks.
81. Lost glasses/contacts → dont own them. (getting very tired of typing this while my keyboard is on top of my monitor....)
82. Sex on first date → sick and wrong on SOOOO many levels.
83. Broken someone's heart? yeah.....
84. Had your own heart broken → yeah.....
85. Been arrested? no.
86. Turned someone down → (blank)
87. Cried when someone died → no, i was still a child back then. didn't know about death and stuff.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → barely enough to survive.
90. Miracles → sometimes.
91. Love at first sight → yeah.
92. Heaven → maybe.
93. Santa Claus → HELL YEAH!
94. Kissing on the first date? →*cough cough*
95. Angels → i can see one. :P

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yes.
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → never had a relationship.
98. Do you believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? yes, definitely
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? the word lol.
100.Tag 10 ppl? don't feel like afflicting anyone with this accursed and suffocating duty. knock yourself out.

Grammar errors all around us.

I just found out that there are grammar errors at different places in the world. Since no one is perfect, we can't expect things to be always correct too, i respect that they tried their best at it. Too bad i don't have my phone with me or else i would've took pictures of it....

I saw one at 1 Utama today. i quote: 'have you lock your car?' the word lock, is supposed to be in past tense. and i quote yet again, :'do not leave laptops and valuebles in the car.' note that the word 'valuebles' is actually spelled like this>> "valuables". i am not scolding or judging them, merely just pointing out their mistakes.

This reminded me when our BI teacher at Kasturi showed us TWO model essays in the Star newspaper. there were many mistakes in the essays that our teacher showed us. i can't believe he could notice such errors in the papers and advertisements. i do still use the dictionary from time to time and check my spellings too. i am not perfect, i am still human.

besides that, i don't think there's anything else interesting to post today.

'fate has separated us yet again'

A new resolve shall be achieved!

After a chain of incidents that occured on me. I've decided to change my ways for the better, for my sake, and everyone elses. I don't know when i'll be able to achieve this resolve, but i know this, no longer shall there be " i'll try my best". Instead, it'll be " I will do it!"

To all my friends, if i caused any problems or any hateful moments towards me, i sincerely apologize through this. i haven't been myself lately, i now know its not only me who has problems. I will try to be more open minded and optimistic, though i do not know how long it will last. BUT, i have to manage! I WILL!

you'll see a new me soon enough! (mentally of course, i cant afford plastic surgery. hahaha!) Now i shall be studying, and YOU should too! Exams coming up in May,we can't afford to waste any more time if we wish to attain perfection! I WILL NOT LOSE!

I bid my old self, farewell. and HELLO TO THE NEW ME!

Preparations

Exams are coming and everyone has to start studying NOW! though i myself haven't started, but i will. soon enough.... hopefully.....

I'll be trying my best to get better results in my mid terms and maybe get myself a new phone. Same model no doubt, loved that phone. OKAY back to the main topic, i WILL get the determination to study, somehow..... i'll just have to keep telling myself..... IF i were to get bad grades..... i'm PWNED(killed,dead). XD

So, point is, I'll be stuffing my brain with knowledge, both useful and not-so-useful, like a die hard fan of studying and will be glad to help others if in need.(which i highly doubt...) I am aiming to be at least in the top 10th-20th, or somewhere near that gap....

Best of luck to everyone, and i'll be here if you need me. right here. uhuh. sure am. here.

'it seems time has seperated us.'

The weirdest dream yet!

Ladies and gentlemen, i have dreams almost everyday of my life, i had many different dreams, and the weirdest one had just hit me in the face.

though i only remembered bits and pieces of the dream, i'll try to recall. (A reminder: this is a mere dream, nothing makes sense.) I remember starting out as a animal, i think it was a small dog... in a swimming pool area. climbed into the sewers and was messing around with the filter and water system, then a big blast of water shot me out somewhere.... Then i suddenly pop up at myself in the "Spirited Away" movie as myself. then i were to save some girl which i currently have no idea who she is... i then found her(somehow) and took her to a lift with a number 5 on it. rode it and went out to a place to take anyone back to the real world.

It was crowded with people, and i suddenly have a pack of chocolates and candy with me(this is getting sooo out of hand). i shared with everyone, then the frogman came in and asked what we were doing, i gave the 'guy' some of the candy and chocolate. i told him if he helped us get out of here, we'd give him more.(or something of this sort) went down into the lift, there was a big beautiful highway and a heck lot of sport cars. and Tat Chee and some other friends popped out of no where...... we all grabbed a sport car and drove off.

I was in the 'real world' with my brand new sports car, and for some reason, a new sleek black slide phone too! but after a while, my brakes and gas pedals of the sports car turned into bicycle pedals! though i'll have to do. Drove around pj in the car and woke up....... and i thought i really gotten a new phone and sports car..... WHAT A LET DOWN~

T.T

Well, that's it for my incredible dream.... yes you're all probably wondering why i posted this. cuz it was AWESOME! and you guys must be looking like this by now >> =.="

i guess i'll stop the lameness and get on with my boring and unexciting life....... *whisper* my beautiful sports car and sleek black phone........ *sobs*

Science, going up in flames.

I'll start from yesterday, i didn't get to post because i was too busy doing homework.(yeah right...)

Yeah so, there was a sports activity yesterday in school, so that means, NO CLASS! except accounts... which was the last two periods so its fine. We've finally started our rocket project for physics, decided to go with potassium nitrate + sugar as fuel rather than the air pressure technique. i'll make this as short as possible though i doubt it'll be short. made the model of the rocket with the help of everyone in the group, tried out the KNO3(potassium nitrate) with sugar and saw fire spewing everywhere. Completed the first prototype rocket(named G1R) and finalized everything else. Went out to the assembly grounds with a poorly built launch pad and tried out the rocket. Lit the fuse and ran back with enthusiastic faces. And no, that thing did not fly... the fuse burned itself up, and after that... some smoke and laughter by us like the little nutcases we are and by the other class that was watching from above. then another group that was working on the same thing fired up theirs. It spewed fire, but was still on the ground..... XD

OK NEXT! we had some minor error in our rocket and decided to team up with our opposing...erm... i mean.... allied group. Made two more rockets with the other group and they fired theirs first in front of the physics teacher. This time it spewed fire AND moved, but didn't actually fly. Was kind of an achievement for them, then after all that, it is already accounts class, had to abandon our rocket with the ones that decided to skip class,( no offence) and from what i've heard, that did not fly either. such dissapointment....T.T i don't think my poor heart can take it! Moving on!

The next day....(which is this morning)

Finished our first two periods of moral and went to the field with the physics teacher to try out all the other rockets by the other groups in the class. ALL of them did the air pressure thing so we just saw different coloured rockets... OH and a big tragedy occurred. One of the rockets wasn't built right, and it TILTED when it was about to shoot out! It was shot out so fast that no one saw it coming. and KA-POW! one of our mercenaries went down. Such a terrible disaster.... though i am not in the liberty to say the names of the victim and the criminals. That person should be fine although that shot looked deadly. A note to that person, take care of yourself over the weekend ya, i suggest you avoid rockets for a while. XD

lol, told you this wont be short. After that, everything was normal so, nothing left to post for now. Congratulations to those who read this far. ByeB!