Major Envy and Depression!

HAHA! it's absolutely incredible the way Ezrul writes! i just can't stop commenting on his 'work' but it's just very very good! Ezrul, if you're reading this, i'm honoured to be able to read your blog and hopefully be one of the firsts to lay eyes on those stories you mentioned. i'm sure they'll be good reads. How envious i am on so many people in this world, but only i can make that first move to change,to improve myself. i really admire how Ezrul writes and hope to be as good as him some day. XD

As of now, no more mediocre essays and mere simple english! my new best friends are Dictionaries and Novels! haha, just joking on that last part. XD

I've been afflicted with a great deal of depression. it reaches me even when i'm in my 'happy place', and it seems to find me wherever i go. Sometimes even in certain places and times which i would not have expected. well, maybe not THAT deep of depression, but more of a sense of loss. as if i just lost all hope in life, nothing but a meaningless journey to nowhere. as though i've been walking an illusionary path into a place where hope and dreams come true. i just don't know what hit me.... there's too much to count.

Speaking of counting, my friends aren't the best to count on for comfort. no offense to all my friends, i'm not aiming at anyone in specific. This is more of a general topic. Either that some have the intense density of a neutron star, or that the others don't have any better way of showing their care and concern... All i get is, 'it's your own fault, yourself is to blame.' 'you didn't do good enough to deserve it' and all kinds of other crap. if not, it's a strong shot of ignorance and a quick change of topic. They can't even say a measly 'i feel sorry for you' or, 'you did your best'. another source of this depression/sorrow/lifelessness/uneasyness, is none other than a lovely thick skinned criticizer i call, my mom. she is never, i repeat, NEVER satisfied with whatever i do. especially in exams..... she can overlook almost anything i'm able to do well on, and go straight to the criticism.... it's almost like a hobby to her. and guess the first line she spat at me when i told her my BI results.... (in chinese)'hmph,your grades dropped again.' WHAT A LINE! i told myself... that's only less than one tenth of what she's capable of....... i've really had it with all this. i can only take in so much! i wonder how much longer till another breakdown.... not long i bet. another thing i've noticed, is that girls get all the attention on even minor things like headaches and stuff. yes yes, 'they're girls, TOP PRIORITY'.

An invisible peasant that no one knows of has lost his appetite, his mood, his enjoyment of life, his last drops of care that people have for him, and moreover, his final strands of existence in other's eyes. those lines are silently dissipating into thin air. slowly and painfully drifting away from that lowly peasant that no one seem to notice. and soon, he shall fade from this world, not knowing the truth on whether he was truly loved, wanted, or was he deceived by all whom he called friends. he shall never get to know.

Oh how it hurts to leave the lime light and watch someone take your place..... oh how it stabs the heart with an endless stream of bullets and blades.

I shall stop here, as most of you would be dead, reading this sorrowful and mood killing blog. go on now, you can leave this desolate blog and enjoy your love while it lasts. do remember to treasure it, though this line would be meaningless until you have lost it. Until then.......

Pertrificus Totalus! *thud*

Tropicana City mall rocks~!!!!!!! SO...... MANY...... GAME SHOPS!!!!!!!! *drools* ME WAN GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO T.T man, finally some place good to shop for a while. a new change of scenery too~ got slightly bored of 1U and sunway.... awesome!

Breakfast at subway~ i learnt to hate tomatoes and green chilli peppers there! tasted horrible.... no offense to the vege lovers out there. all else was fine. my second time at that place and i'm already loving it! my mom went to shop while i was at the arcade with 10 bucks at hand, and as a nice little boy i always was, i only used 5 bucks! awwwwww~ such a good boy... XD I tried my hand at Time Crisis 4 and some other shooting game. turns out it isn't as easy as i thought. oh well. worst part was that i 'won' last place in Daytona..... TIP: never play a track you're not good at with manual gear....

MOVIES MOVIES MOVIES! well, more like movie. cuz i'm only watching one. Harry Potter and the half blood prince! ah ah ah~ no spoilers! the movies was overall OK~ loads of love-y dovy scenes. Good for teenagers and such. then there's the awesome magicky effects! though not too much excitement. then, my mom's 'constructive criticism' took it down a notch.... still good~ still good. nothing much after that though. once there's a shuttle bus service there, or a more convenient way to get there besides by car, maybe i'll go there with my friends. yes i'm talking about you. :P well, more to game fanatics such as myself. KEKEKE! ok that's about it! i'll be taking a leisurely stroll to my ps2, which is about, what? 10 feet away? LOL! oh yeah~ i finished Resident Evil 4! YAY ME! ok, ok, enough self praise..... bye guys and girls! stay tuned!

I beg my leave.

My lonely dinner?

One chicken and mushroom omelette, spicy, hold the plate. HAHAHA! ok i was joking about the plate part, but yeah i had omelette for dinner today. by myself. at NZX. T.T that was my first time eating an omelette. quite a nice taste and the name has a good ring to it. :P i didn't want to eat anything normal, so, special it is! and i actually finished the veges for once! well, except the tomato.... Weird that when i ordered Honey Seacoconut Longan, it said Honey Seacoconut Longan. but it came out just Honey Seacoconut. and you might ask, where's the Longan? i don't know. I'm feeling very lonely these days...... Mom goes out to work almost every weekday, and i'm at home all alone. *clang* (door opening) oh, guess she's back. where was i.... oh yeah..... all alone......

In a totally UNrelated topic, EXAMS ARE HERE! monthly exams start in approximately 5 days. and i still haven't start studying. Maybe just a bit. i think..... haha.... guess i couldn't care less...... haiz..... there's this thing bugging me.... swirling around my mind, and i can't seem to get it out. If i could manage to remove it temporarily, my studies might just get better. then there's the game addiction. TOO MANY GAMES!!!!!!! i just can't stop playing. HAHA, games are one of the things i don't have self control over.

I'm guessing the blogging season is over. everything's slowing down gradually..... studies are more important eh? it sure seems so... well, that's about all i have to say. till next times kiddies~

I beg my leave.

Tat Chee's first birthday party!

YAY HIM! for finally getting to celebrate his birthday in a proper manner. and i mean proper as in, friends, presents, loads of fun! XD

Waking up at about 7.30 this morning, drowsy old me was too excited about it for some reason... flipped around on the bed for the next 10 minutes, got bored. So i started my daily routine early. My mom, awakened by my constant bed shaking, got up as well! HAHAHA

Yes, it was extremely early, but what can i say? An outing with my friends always makes me excited no matter what the occasion is. Had breakfast at McD in SS2 while my mom went to the market to get some food supplies. then sat there 'till about 9.30 and took off to my grandma's to drop some stuff and headed to the kelana LRT station. I was punctual as always, being the first one to get there. Then came Chun How, then E Wei, Cheryl, and lastly, the birthday boy Tat Chee. XD

Our destination was sunway. Once we went on the bus, i was on constant alert on the safety of my phone. Since the horrendous incident of my phone being pick-pocketed, i'm extra careful. We strolled around the place for a while. Then went to see if we can get tickets for a movie, but the cinema was packed, so we backed out on it. We went to A&W afterwards for Tat Chee and the others to have their breakfast. Thinking on what to do next, we sat at the place with our tummies still full.(except E Wei's) Since going for movies was not an option anymore, we went to the skating rink, and Cheryl was right about a competition being held. so, PLAN C! karaoke~ HAHA! Tat Chee said there was a newly opened karaoke place, or whatever you call it. It was at the car parking area. which was awkward. don't ask me why it was built there, i myself would like to know.

We sang a lot.(duh) Ate EVEN MORE..... and sang some more.... and for some abnormal reason, i always forget that my phone has a built-in camera.... so, i have no pictures of the place. Chun How and Cheryl should have a few. The place was cold, and it was cold....... and it was cold..... funniest part is when we sang with funny voices and laughed like maniacs! XD beautiful moments... and some, not-so-beautiful moments. :P The Cake was wonderfully delicious! erm, White chocolate cake with fruit fillings. HAHAHA!

The air conditioning was crazy, our food turned cold in the matter of minutes! It'll have to do~ the leather chairs were comfortable though. XD sang for about 4-5 hours. Nuts aren't we? HAHA, i agree. After paying for everything, we strolled around sunway even more. looked at some clothes on the way and headed home. I'm not gonna explain on the journey home as i believe most of you are half asleep by now. And my memory being as bad as it could be, i forgot the sequence of what happened above, so i'm just typing what i remember.

It was incredibly fun, i have to admit, even if there was only 5 people. Maybe it's because i rarely get to go out with friends so i might be overreacting. It was fun for me at least, we all had tons of laughter, so i doubt anyone didn't have fun.(try not to get confused on that last line)

I beg my leave~

Just ain't as it used to be eh?

My mom finally took her car for a wash. turns out it was a bad choice. The door handle popped off when we came back to the car from Giant after my tuition. She said that everytime she takes the car for a wash, something bad always happens. i've never gotten the chance to confirm that myth of hers but, the handle did come off..... she's taking it for a fix tomorrow morning. hope i could make it to the lrt station in time tomorrow. definitely DONT want to be late. nothing much to post about these days.... monthly exams arrive in approximately 2 weeks, if my sources are right..... *sighs*

well then, my fingers hinder me from typing more stuff, so i'll be stopping here.

i beg my leave~